Thursday — December 31, 2009
dunzo.

It’s the last day of 2009. And the eve of 2010. I had an amazing year. I learned so much, both creatively and personally. I grew too. I realized that I am a stronger individual than I ever imagined. I endured pain and heartache, but I also experienced love and joy. I traveled the world and saw things I never thought I would. 2009 was a fabulous year, and as I look back I cannot help but smile. I accomplished so much. I can only imagine what is in store for me in the future. I am excited to see what is ahead. I used to be scared of the unknown and the uncertainty that it brought along with it, but not anymore. I am eagerly anticipating whatever is coming my way. I’m up for the challenge, and I know I will enjoy the ride!

"Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced, another sun soaked season fades away." —Dashboard Confessional

Tuesday — December 29, 2009
swim the ocean.

I’m crazy about type. I love letters. I’m also a fan of the written word. I find it so fascinating the way that with 26 letters thousands upon thousands of words can be created, which then can be streamed together in countless combinations to produce sentences. Sentences that then convey messages dabbed in imagery and drenched with meaning. Emotions and feelings can be expressed just by placing multiple words next to each other. It’s magic in one of the purest forms. I also find it interesting how the intent can be misinterpreted depending on the reader’s mind. It is hard to tell the exact meaning that the writer meant because with words, anything can be possible and everything is left open for interpretation. I have a very active imagination, which keeps me very busy for most of the day, so I often find myself trying to decode key phrases and sentences when I read them. I also have to admit that I sometimes even try and figure out people’s exact meaning when they simply just speak as well. I usually am left with the perplexing thought, “Was that a compliment or a comment?” I also travel down different roads and run different scenarios as to multiple meanings in my head.

Listening to Metro Station, “Kelsey.” Beautiful song. Do take a listen. I adore the lyrics.

Sunday — December 27, 2009
playing

Stuffing my face with candy… what else is new? Playing games, of the electronic nature… however, I do love old board games (Clue, anyone?!). Rain comes down and then it stops, enabling the bright sunshine to poke it’s head through the gray clouds, even if for only a few short minutes. Thinking I may drink some nog… it is the season! Staying positive and optimistic. Love random acts of kindness…receiving a Christmas greeting from an old friend, opening a personalized “thank you” when you’re not expecting one, listening to a cd made just for you by a complete stranger. I love the little things in life that make you stop and just smile! Why can’t everyday be Sunday?! I want to travel. I need a vacation. Where would I go? Where wouldn’t I go? Someplace cold…I’d like to escape the frigid temperatures and bask in the sun and see something I’d never seen before (And maybe some animals too). Okay… I am done. It’s off I go, to drink some nog!

Thursday — December 24, 2009
eve

Christmas is tomorrow. I love this time of year. The food, the meaning, the holiday traditions, the colors, and festivities…I’m a fan of it all. It’s the perfect time to be with the ones that you love and surround yourself with familiar and pleasant faces. Christmas is about spreading joy and happiness and showing those who are important to you, that you care (and I don’t mean by buying expensive gifts. What I mean is just being there for them and helping them see that your love is unconditional). I could go on at great length in regards to what Christmas means to me, but I won’t. Instead, I will simply say, I hope you have a joyous day and feel the spirit of the season as you go about your life... because life is wonderful. It’s so beautiful. Never loose sight of that and always act with your heart and you never will falter.

Wednesday — December 23, 2009
Christmas baby!

"I just want you for my own. More than you could ever know. Make my wish come true. Baby all I want for Christmas is...You."

That’s my favorite Christmas song, or at least one of them. I have so many fave holiday tunes (a lot of which are in Spanish)! I like my music heavy on the latin beats! Can you believe that it is almost Christmas?! Are you ready? I am, for the most part at least. I still have a ton of holiday baking to do and some last minute shopping to accomplish, but everything will get done, as it always does!!!

Tuesday — December 22, 2009
maybe

“The only way to really know, is to really let go.”

That’s what I am doing. That is all I can do.

Thursday — December 17, 2009
hair

I want to cut my hair. That’s a big decision. I’m not I’m ready to take the plunge. My hair is super long and for the longest time I have wanted to chop it off so it hits just at my shoulders. When I was in high school my hair was that short and I loved it! It became that length not by choice but by an accident. I went to the salon and told my stylist I wanted a trim, several inches off. Well an hour later, I left with shorter hair than I ever planned on getting that day! But I will say this, it was a very happy accident because it really looked good. It was easy to take care of and I think it suited the texture of my hair. My hair is naturally curly/wavy so the short do with layers enabled the natural bounce of the strands to really jump with life. The long length weighs my waves down and due to the cold, my hair always feels flat… that’s why I constantly straighten it. Down in the south I can wear my hair natural and the humidity makes it appear so thick and curly! I absolutely love it!!! So should I cut my hair? I’m not sure. I have grown quite attached to it in the past few years that I have been growing it out!

In other news… I’m feeling chipper. I have a great sense of optimism. The past few days have been harder on me than anyone will ever know. But I’m strong. Stronger than most people give me credit for. And I have an immense amount of faith in my psychic abilities and I know it is only a matter of time before what I predict will become reality. I’m not crazy… I just am very intune with myself and my surroundings. I can see what is going to happen before it does. I have a great ability and it’s amazing.

Wednesday — December 16, 2009
Forever & Always

“Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore”— Taylor Swift

If you haven’t heard “Forever and Always” by miss Swift, you must. It’s all I have been listening to since Sunday. Sunday was a day completely different than Wednesday. A week ago today I was seriously the happiest girl in the world. My dreams were coming true. Seven days later everything has changed. I’m living in a nightmare and all I want to do is wake up. The sad thing is… I am awake and it just keeps getting worse.

Tuesday — December 8, 2009
And the beat goes on

Laughing. Wondering why it has to get cold. I am in love with my snakeskin boots! My bedroom needs to be cleaned, but tidiness will have to wait for I am far too busy at the present moment to be concerned with that. Hair is straight and worn in a ponytail. Read the ABC’s backwards today, which was quite fun. Tried to get tickets for a show, but pre-sale sold-out, so I was left empty-handed and sad! Talk is talk and it keeps going. Dizziness abounds. Spinning into a nothingness. Okay, I’m done.

Thursday — December 3, 2009
It IS a very happy day!!!

It smells like smoke, but it’s not smoke… It’s actually a “mistletoe” scented candle! It’s beyond disgusting, I feel like gagging! I much prefer smelling things of a sweet and sugary nature (trees and pine scents should be left to be smelt in the outdoors). Needless to say, I did not purchase said candle (I wouldn’t have).

I was istening to Oona.. La la la la la
Then I took a tour of the world and just finished sampling tunes from Algeria and France. So good!!!

Happy un-Birthday to me!!! If there is such a thing as an unbirthday wish, I know what mine is. I just want a resolution and in the most finite type of matter. I want a concrete answer, not an interpretation of a thought that could be misunderstood. That's all. Nothing too much or extreme is wanted by me.

Wedneday — December 2, 2009
Dimelo

December is here. It’s cold and I know it will only get colder. I dread that. Already it is impossible for me to muster the strength in the morning to get out of bed and leave the comfort and warmth that the sea of blankets provides me with. As the cold grows bitter, I know that it will only get harder for me to get up each day. Why can’t we lounge in pajamas all day and drink hot cocoa?

I’ve been eating m&m’s all day. I often sit and wonder about things. I’m curious and inquisitive. I like to know the truth and always seek it. Currently I’m reading a fabulous book. I finished the “Vampire Diaries” series two weeks ago and now I’ve moved on to reading about other supernatural beings. This novel is of the YA genre and it deals with werewolves. It’s not hokey at all. It’s a love story and is completely breathtaking and refreshing. It totally goes with my new take on the Twilight debate… Team Wolf Pack, all the way!!!

“Dimelo” is the name of two very different, but equally very good songs, both of which are sung by two very different Latin heartthrobs (by the names of Marc and Enrique).

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