Friday — October 23, 2009
life RIGHT now

Listening to rap with a Spanish twang to it. I’m so proud to be Cuban (I just had to say that)! Candy was consumed in large numbers today. I wrote a poem, and it rhymed. "It was actually pretty good", or so she chimed. I created a movie earlier that was full of flash (get it? If not, whateva). I am determined to make buttons my friend! I’ve started videoing my life again. If anyone ever saw what I have recently recorded, I am sure they would say that I should be an actress. Perhaps I should have been. My dramatical skills are superb. I can really evoke such deep and raw emotions (the funny thing is, I don't even act… that’s how good I am. I can't help it... I feel it from deep within).

I slept great last night, I think because all week I suffered from a bad case of insomnia (not fun, trust me). I awoke this morning in the most pleasant mood. I felt so peaceful and tranquil. It seriously was pure serenity. Waking up in such a glorious state of mind made me feel quite content about life. I don’t know why I felt the way I did, but perhaps it’s a sign. I should mention that I am psychic… I can predict the future! Okay, no I’m not really a psychic, but my predictions are pretty right on. I think it’s due to the sign I was born under, but more on that another day. I will leave the subject matter with this thought: I have great sense receptors, as weird as that may sound, and I can feel things and I see things that I believe most people do not. Is it some supernatural ability? Probably not, even though that would be beyond cool. I think it’s just due to the fact that I just really see life for what it is. I am in tune to what is going on around me. I pay such close to attention to my surroundings and take it all in that when something is amiss I sense it. I will say, that sometimes I can be slightly off in my assessments, but for the most part I’m psychic. What lays ahead in my future, you ask? Well I will tell you this, fairy-tales are real and magic does happen. I’m a firm believer that everyone deserves their happy ending and I know I will get mine in due time. I’m positive what is meant to be will be, there’s no stopping the inevitable. Fate is real. Fate is magic. And I believe in both.

Here’s to life and here’s to patience, for without patience you can’t thoroughly enjoy life. So be patient with all you do. And always remember that you’re waiting will be rewarded in the long run.

Tuesday — October 20, 2009
Too early?

I’m currently listening to Christmas music! But I have good reason. I recently purchased David Archuleta’s new Holiday album and I tried as hard as I could to refrain from opening the package and playing the festive tunes, but my will wasn’t so strong and I caved after only a few hours!

It’s still only October, I know, and Halloween hasn’t even passed yet! What is wrong with me?!? It’s because it’s David, and in my defense I have been skipping over most songs and only playing the ones that are in Spanish! But it is a very good CD!!! Can’t wait for the holidays!!!

Sunday — October 18, 2009
the sky at dusk

Life is funny. Whenever I feel down or slightly out of it, I just think of my twilight day and a huge smile creeps across my face. How can anyone experience any type of emotion but pure giddiness when one has a perfect afternoon to reminisce on? This particular memory is the kind that most girls can only dream about, and I’ve experienced it in reality!

I have to be honest with you, another smirk just shot across my face. I know that if I wanted to, I could have days like that everyday. But I’ve chosen another path to travel on and am quite content with my decision, even when obstacles seem to get in my way from time to time.

Saturday — October 17, 2009
it was you

“If only you could feel
My heart race
And see the light
On my face
Then you would know the truth
And I would know the truth.”

That is one of my favorite songs by the Pierces. The funny thing is, I am almost certain it has to do with ill-fated relationships where one of the parties involved was unfaithful. I don’t like the tune because of the intended meaning. I like it because of what it means to me. It’s a powerful song and I never tire of it. It’s such a simple and melodic tune. And to be honest with you, I often listen to it more frequently when I’m in contemplative and meditative mood. What does it mean to me exactly? Never stop trying. Regardless how messy life gets, you have to just keep your head up high.

“No matter how hard it gets
No matter how thick your head is
There's always something
More to learn
Even if you just want to quit.”

Friday — October 16, 2009
ghostgirl

I had the most fabulous evening tonight! I went to a book signing where I got to meet New York Times bestselling YA author Tanya Hurley. Hurley penned ghostgirl and most recently the sequel, ghostgirl: Homecoming. I had been wanting to meet Hurley since last year when I found out she was doing a book signing in Salem, MA (the same day my sister and I went there for a visit. We didn’t make it to the bookstore though…I couldn’t find it!). I’m a frequent visitor to Tonya’s website, I also haunt the ghostgirl site as well, if you haven’t done so you really should check both out! I just LOVE the graphics of the book site! And it’s pink and black!!! So, one day as I was checking her site I discovered she was going to be at book store by where I live doing a signing! I’m going to sound like a nerd, but I grew excited! I waited to purchase her new book, because I wanted to buy it the day of the signing so I could get it autographed!

The event was tonight and it was incredible. Tonya was so friendly and sweet. She talked about her book, where the idea came from and how she started out in film production. It really was an inspiring evening. I feel I now have the motivation needed to finish a project I started last summer. I realized tonight that I don’t need to rush things. If I get stuck again, that's okay. What is important is to let things flow naturally and always remain positive (as I am)!

I purchased my copy of ghostgirl: Homecoming (along with Robert Sabuda’s Alice in Wonderland… I am a HUGE Sabuda fan)!!! Tonya signed my book and gave me the cutest black shirt with Charlotte Usher (miss ghostgirl, herself) on the front!!! I also got a photo with her (which came out fabulous, I might add). After the signing, I went to my car and grabbed my copy of ghostgirl (which I had left in the backseat) and had Tonya sign that as well.

As you can see it was a wonderful evening! Ohhh, and by the way…if you haven’t read ghostgirl, do!!! It’s a great tale about a girl (named Charlotte Usher) who chokes on a gummie bear and dies. It’s a humorous story dealing with high school drama, love, and friends. It’s not like any other book out there! And I mean that in every way possible. The story is unique and the design of the book itself is pure graphic genius! Simply put, the cover is beautiful. It has a clear cutout with an illustration of Charlotte. The pages are white trimmed in silver and every chapter has a graphic illustration adjacent to a solid black page with a quote. I love how the book is so different. It really is a tiny treasure!

I cannot wait to read Homecoming!! Tonya said she just finished book #3 in the series… I’m super excited to see what is in store for ghostgirl!!!

Thursday — October 15, 2009
meaning means a great many things

Been awhile. What is my reason? I’m not sure. Something strange is happening. The taste of coffee seems bitter in my mouth. Am I getting sick? Again, I’m not sure. I’m in an odd mood. Perhaps it’s the weather. It’s cloudy out, slightly cold. That’s not a reason, even though I do feel that my moods are connected to the atmosphere. I’m semi-weird I know. So here I am rambling, about nonsensical things. What do I mean? Is there ever a meaning? I think there is, but it doesn’t have to be intended to be worthwhile or to be of importance.

I once was told that in the creation of art, meaning means a lot. At the time, the statement meant nothing to me because I was interpreting it all wrong, at least that is how I now view the occurrence as being. Let me explain. Significant purpose does not have to be premeditated. It can be thought upon afterwards as one reflects on what they have created. Sometimes the bigger picture isn’t seen until creation ceases and proper reflection is obtained. Meaning can come at any time. In every case scenario, it is best to keep on the look out and pay close attention to the tiny details. It is in the miniscule artifacts that the bigger picture is ultimately painted and through that scene purpose can be found.

Thursday — October 8, 2009
Haphazard thoughts

I have straight hair today. Refused to be cold when leaving in the morning so I wore a red sweater and brown leather jacket, plus a cheetah print scarf (very stylish indeed)! Made Cuban coffee, but something was not right. The last few days whenever I have attempted to brew a fresh pot, it has tasted slightly off. Tomorrow I am determined to perfect my favorite caffeinated beverage (makes no sense why lately it’s not tasting up to par). Read about vampires. Acquired a book about mythological sea creatures. Thought about dolls, actually doll eyes (it’s best I leave it at that)! Hazel blue is a very lovely color. Dreams come true and fairy-tales are real. The sun shone down bright, but the wind breezed by chilling the atmosphere. Resisted the temptation to snack on freshly baked cookies (but I have to admit, I will devour some in a few hours)! Aliens and blobs are all beings of curious proportions. Tired and sleepy am I. Enough now. I’m off. Goodbye!

Wednesday — October 7, 2009
five 7 five

I’ve been writing a lot lately. Mainly poetry. Haikus are my current captivation. I have always enjoyed the rich simplicity of how so few words could convey such a powerful meaning.

Tuesday — October 6, 2009
3

I’m currently reading three books. One is book #2 in the latest vampire series I began. Another is a coming of age tale about high school life dealing with love and burgers (yummy! No, not really, because it’s about a guy working at a burger joint so the food is a little less than appealing. Extra greasy and full of fat)! And finally, the last is a book of poetry written by teens.

I’m contemplating starting another novel, but I feel as though I should finish what’s on my plate before I devour something else.
Happy reading! =)

Monday — October 5, 2009
leaves

October is here at last. I love this time of year. The leaves are changing. It truly is beautiful. This past weekend I went up to Vermont and the sight outside was positively breathtaking. Everywhere my eyes traveled, there was beauty to behold. The trees were all different shades of crimson, scarlet, and ginger. It rained on Saturday and there was fog in the atmosphere, which made the dying leaves pop all the more.

Pumpkins can be seen everywhere from patches on the side of the road to porches where they sit as festive decorations. I love the little round fruits. It’s one of my favorite ingredients to cook with. I bake cookies, make pasta, and even soup with the curious orange cucurbit. To me, the pumpkin is something magical. Is it because so many great fairy-tales, including several that I have written, portray the fruit as having supernatural abilities? Perhaps. It’s a nice thought, don’t you think?

Speaking of pumpkins and stories, I’m off now to begin illustrations on a fable I wrote a few years ago. Since its original completion (meaning since I finished writing, illustrating, and binding the tale), I have revised the story. It is time to revisit this old friend and illustrate it once again. I look forward to see where the creative path takes me this time. Will it be an exact replica of the original byproduct? Or will it be completely different in every which way? Only time will tell, but I hope that it is something fresh and new that is able to convey the magic of the words I have written.

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