Wednesday — September 30, 2009
hot pink is HOT

There was a chill in the air. I was glad I didn’t have far to walk for I was not dressed for such temperatures (pink dress and green sweater made the gray day seem bright)! I continue to wear what I want with no thought as to what the weather outside may be. That will change, however, because this girl would prefer to be comfortable and cozy warm rather than feeling icy cold due to an improper clothing choice. No more dresses or skirts with bare legs. If I wear anything flowy, tights or leggings will be worn underneath.

Also, I think I need to pay closer attention to what the weather will be because I tend to dress the opposite of whatever it is. When it rains I don’t have my rain boots on, but when it’s not… that’s when I do (in my defense, usually the weathermen are wrong, predicting storms, which I prepare for, and then nothing ever comes of their prediction).

Tomorrow, pants and a sweater is what you will see me in!

Tuesday — September 29, 2009
Thirsty

I’m currently reading a book about vampires. That seems to be a subject I cannot escape from. I like reading about fantastical creatures and the supernatural elements that make life appear more magical. This particular book is one of a series, written back in the early 1990’s. It’s interesting to read and compare the various other vampire tales out there because there are so many. A lot of the stories about bloodthirsty beasts have numerous characteristics in common.

A common thread I have noticed is that most of the undead, that feed on blood, tend to be able to (to some extent) read minds. Is that a just a mere coincidence amongst the various authors of the supernatural? Or do these storytellers know something we don’t? Either way, it’s an interesting topic nonetheless. This particular series I have started is now a hit TV show, which I am diligently recording each week. When I have read most of the books, I will make a weekend of having a vampire-watching marathon. I’m excited to see the show and how they have adapted it from the best-selling series.

The book I am currently reading is very suspenseful and leaves me on edge, which I thoroughly enjoy. It’s good to be slightly scared when reading. It shows the sign of a great writer if they can unnerve you.

By the way, once I have finished this series I intend to go back to my other vamp series I started in the summer and complete that. Either before or after I read the other series, I have one more vampire book to read. That one however, is not part of a collection. It stands alone. But I think I shall read it when I tackle the other books by that particular author (there are about four I would like to read by him)!

Monday — September 28, 2009
Pee-wee

Four years ago today, my life forever changed.

I remember exactly what I was wearing. I wore a skirt of lilac and white tank top. A denim jacket covered my arms. I took a test in the subject of art history. I passed, of course. I never got a grade below an A. It just wasn’t me. I was a nerd, still am. I was excited, not only was I done with class but also I was off to wish my grandma a Happy Birthday and spend the evening partaking in the festive activities that were to be held in the place of residence where she lived.

I never got to see her face as she opened up her gifts, that we so thoughtfully bought. I never got to eat that celebratory dinner with her and her friends. I never even got to say Happy Birthday, for nonnie had died just that afternoon.

To die on one’s Birthday, is it poetic or is it just coincidence? Either way, that is how nonnie left this world.

Friday — September 25, 2009
quiet meadow

Lost ponies. That’s all I can think of. Poor helpless little creatures. I hope they find their way.

Wednesday — September 23, 2009
count 'em, 1, 2, 3...

Three words that describe my current mood: Tired, merry, and optimistic.

Tired- I was up far too late last night. I tried everything to get me to doze off (reading, drank a glass of milk…) but nothing worked!

Merry- life is good. What more can I say?

Optimistic- I have hope that even though I’m feeling extremely sleepy, the floor in the kitchen will get mopped (not by me, obviously, but by some higher power… can we say magic? I hope so, because if not, that floor isn’t getting cleaned tonight).

Tuesday — September 22, 2009
Simply put...

Happy Birthday to you! You know who you are!

Monday — September 21, 2009
Constant state of literary heaven….

I went to two stores today, all of which sold books. One store was an actual bookstore, the other was not. I spent a great deal of time reading the covers and examining the inner parts of a good number of the literary works. I left both stores with mixed feelings. I was, and still am, excited because I love discovering new books to read, but at the same time it is a little frustrating because now I have an even longer list of books I want to read! Oh, woe is me! haha! So many books, so little time. But if that’s the one complaint I have from the day at hand, than life is pretty sweet as far as I’m concerned.

By the way, today is the last day of the season of summer. Fall begins tomorrow. Again, I am left with several emotions bubbling deep inside of me. I am sad to see my favorite time of year pass in the blink of an eye, but at the same time I am eager to welcome autumn and all that it brings. Radiant orange pumpkins, crimson leaves, and crisp cool air are some of the reasons fall is the season I adore the most, after summer that is.

Sunday — September 20, 2009
Glow of the sun...Silence of the moon

I dug deep into the depths of one of my closets. This particular one houses coats and jackets. I was on a mission. I was in search of my old sketchbooks. It didn’t take long to locate them. They were stored in a huge blue bin that also keeps random school notebooks and binders out of everyday sight. Why was it that I wanted these books that haven’t been used in years? The answer is simple, inspiration. I have stories written on the pages, ideas for various projects and the occasional doodle that illustrated my current state of mind at the time. I can’t wait to rummage through these old black spiral bound books and revisit the past. I hope to be able to obtain something from them that I can use in the here in now. I am not sure what exactly I’m looking for, but I know when I find that special treasure it will all make sense.

So off am I to dive into the past and hopefully rescue a lost idea or two!

Saturday — September 19, 2009
Cinderella

You're becoming a dream to me, a fairytale fantasy, nothing can ever compare, an image to my memory…
— Chris Brown

Fabulous song by Chris. It’s actually a remix of Rihanna’s Umbrella, which is a great tune to begin with, but I’m partial to this version! The lyrics are too cute…it always makes me smile!

Fridady — September 18, 2009
skipping down a broken path...

I’m almost done. I could not be happier. I can see the finish line. It’s so close. I can almost touch it. Once I have reached it, the whole race will start again, but I have a feeling it won’t be as difficult this time around. Now I know what to do and what needs to be done. It’s exciting. Bring on the challenge; I welcome it with open arms!

Oh, by the way, in case you didn't know, today is a new moon! It's a very Twilight-y day indeed! haha

Wednesday — September 16, 2009
stillness

It’s cloudy outside right now. I wish it would just rain.

Tuesday — September 15, 2009
z-Z-z-Z-z

Up and down. Never side to side. I am positively in a fabulous mood. Isn’t it strange how the little things can make the biggest difference in the long run?

I still can’t sleep at night. My mind races and random thoughts continuously fill my head as I lay in bed. But what can I do, but just go with the flow and be up? Soon enough my body will tire from the late night slumber resistance and I will find myself in a beautiful state of REM sleep... Until then I must take advantage of my hours spent awake and try and be somewhat productive. If you count watching a classic movie by acclaimed director, Alfred Hitchcock, as a prolific use of one’s time, than I was extremely fruitful in the wee hours of the night just passed. I must say, however, that I did not finish said film because after a short while I grew quite tired. Just as it was getting good, I might add. I turned it off and slowly dozed off, with every intention of finishing the black and white movie in the hours that I know I will be awake late this evening (I suppose the correct wording would be, “early tomorrow morning,” seeing as my time up merges into the next day seamlessly).

I consumed caffeine in large quantities today. It was drank in the form of Cuban coffee because of my lack of an adequate amount of sleep. I grew tired. I started to lag. I uncontrollably, let out a yawn. I couldn’t be falling into a state of sleep so early. So I took matters into my own hands and brewed a fresh pot of black goodness. The day is young and much still needs to be done, hence, the reason for my caffeine consumption. A siesta would not be good… but it is sounding quite appealing right now.

All this talk of sleep is making me rather sleepy. I think I need to play my favorite pick me music and hope this wave of exhaustion leaves my system before it becomes uncontrollable.
Wish me luck!

Monday — September 14, 2009
silver sneakers on your feet

Days pass by. I couldn’t sleep last night. I took a trip to the past, something I know I shouldn’t have done, but couldn’t resist the urge to do so. That’s not the reason behind my sudden insomnia. No, my refusal to sleep was not related to the days long and gone. At least I don’t think it was. But who knows, maybe subconsciously I was distraught over what was revealed again.

This morning I took a similar trip back, but my mood was uplifted. I realized I truly must hold some sort of physic abilities because what I predicted and felt was shown to be accurate… and I only had to wait a week for the magic to happen!

Never underestimate the power of…. (Fill in with your choice noun).

Sunday — September 13, 2009
miss Austen

Today I traveled back in time. I took a tour with the famous Jane Austen.

Okay, no I didn’t… not really, anyways, but it was still a highly interesting day. My sister and I toured an old house, located not too far from where we live. The guides, who were dressed in period costumes, took us around the different rooms all the while making connections between the various windows and furniture to miss Austen and her works of fiction. The tour was sprinkled with revealing quotes from some of Jane’s most popular novels. There was no real connection between the writer and the home, but it was fun to see how the guides were able to weave the two together.

The tour really made me want to watch Pride & Prejudice again.

Friday — September 11, 2009
honestly

I’m feeling extremely inspired and energetic today. I have great plans for how I will spend my time in the hours to come. I will create art.

The creation of art in the purest and most honest of form is something that cannot be forced. It has to flow from the creator as if it were a river, constantly moving and ever changing for it is always in flux. I intend to be truthful and unmixed in whatever I create in the coming hours. It will ultimately be a surprise to me, hopefully one that is of the most pleasant of nature. But if for some reason, the honesty reveals something darker and perhaps more intense, well, I shall welcome that as well for beauty can be found in almost anything and I have every intention of finding it (regardless what the end product may be).

On a slightly less serious note, the weather is overcast right now. It’s cloudy…with a chance of meatballs! Such a great book that is!

Thursday — September 10, 2009
mac & cheese!!!

I made meatloaf for dinner. The weather is starting to change, it’s not so humid anymore. As I was driving, I noticed the leaves are starting to turn a brownish-orange hue, which is kind of funny because those are the colors I unknowingly wore today. Learned a lot about the letters p, d, and f (catch my drift? If not, you probably aren’t so computer savvy, but don’t feel bad…I’m sure you can do plenty of super cool things, like count in Russian or build model planes). Finished Rebecca at long last. Grew famished around 11 and started snacking on pretzels. The train broke down on me and I had to get off with everybody else and wait for another one to come and rescue us. I also cooked mac & cheese (to go along with my loaf). Oh, how I love to cook. Wrote a lot and danced a bit (it’s hard not to when you’re grooving to some pretty righteous tunes). Did I mention, I’m over the moon? If not, I really truly am. Life is sweet and so is pie. I think I shall fall asleep right here. It was impossible to get up this morning, but up I got. Milk was drunk, and cookies were eaten. Now it is time for me to compose one final list for the day…. I have exactly 24 minutes to do so as well.

Wednesday — September 9, 2009
Where the wild socks are...

Where, oh where, do all of the lost socks go? This seriously perplexes me. I feel as though I am constantly loosing them in the washing machine. Is there some sort of hole that opens up while the machine is on? Does the huge hole grow in size and swallow my socks whole, leaving me left with only one, that used to belong to a pair? I know not, and perhaps I never will. But I have to say, I hope to discover were the lost socks go because sooner or later I am going to be without. I will be completely sockless!

Tuesday — September 8, 2009
Who would've thought?!?!

Finally the time has come. I can listen to one of my favorite songs, one that I have loved for years and years, and honestly say that it matches exactly how I am feeling. I’ve waited quite a while for the moment when I could make the connection b/w the song and my own life. I always had faith that sooner or later the day would come. And of course, that day has come and I couldn’t be happier =)

Monday — September 7, 2009
take me to the HAPPY Valley

Last night I dreamt I went to Manderley again.
I am currently reading Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier. It is a book I had been wanting to read since last summer but never got around to it. I have to admit, that it did start out quite slow in the beginning. It had me seriously doubting that I would ever finish it. But once it picked up a bit, I got completely lost in the English countryside. I was taken away to a large stone house located on a cliff overlooking the sea below. Dark woods surround the house on one side and rose gardens are manicured perfectly on the other. As I read, I am there.

It is a great read that I seriously cannot put down. It is a about the owner of Manderley, the stone house I described before, Maxim and his new bride. Everyone compares the new Mrs. De Winter to the previous wife of Max, who drowned a year ago, named Rebecca. Everywhere the new Mrs. De Winter goes she is reminded of the one came before her. It starts to haunt her, especially when the head maid, Mrs. Danvers, displays some unusual behavior (acting as if the late Rebecca is still alive by setting her clothes out for her still, every night). It is a very suspenseful and thrilling read!

I am almost done and cannot wait to finish it, not just because I want to know what happens to Max and his new bribe (and if Rebecca really does win in the end), but because by finishing one book, means that I can start another!

Thursday — September 3, 2009
lies and such

Head pounding. Endless noise. I am beyond happy. Summer is ending, but that is not the root of my happiness. I am actually rather sad to see my favorite season pass, as it does every year. But of course, there is no stopping it. It is moving on. I can feel it. I was at the pool today, and it just did not feel the same. Something was off, and not just the fact that I was there alone with the lifeguard for most of the day. That is, before other individuals began to show up. It was something more. The sun was different. It cast different rays, still hot, but not the rays I know of summer. The positions of the afternoon shadows were modified and seemed grander. I have felt this change the past few weeks. But the feeling is more apparent now, especially since September is upon us and August is but a memory, only to be replayed when dwelled on. Time goes by so fast. I rather not like change, but have realized it is inevitable. Some changes are good and I welcome them with open arms. It is most important to view change as something to be learned from and hopefully in time it can be seen as a form of excitement. It is almost like traveling to the unknown. You are not sure what to expect or what is in store for you. All you can do is sit back and enjoy the ride, wherever it is it takes you!

So, back to my extreme happiness. What is the cause? Will I sound terribly drab if I were to say that it is, simply life? I am pleased with the puzzle and am finding that the pieces are appearing to fit together nicely. It is not complete, it is far from it, but it will get done. positivity is the key that is most definitely needed when approaching the jigsaw pieces, for with positive thoughts come positive entities and ultimately supreme happiness.

Also, it should be noted that the puzzle master does not tolerate lies. They get you nowhere in life. Even if you think you are good, you’re more than likely not and someone will find out, it’s just a matter of time. Due note that everything comes back around, so the lies you tell to ease the craziness of your life will ultimately make it even more chaotic at some point in time. Tell the truth and always be honest. Say what you mean and mean what you say.

On another note, I am reading the most engaging book. Highly suspenseful. That is where I am off to right now… to read and get lost in the English countryside!

Wednesday — September 2, 2009
MY Holiday in the Sun!

Crystal clear teal water everywhere. Lush green mountains in the distance. Endless blue sky with puffs of white fluffy clouds that make me crave cotton candy. White sandy beaches with hardly anyone on them. Occasional rain that doesn’t last for more than five minutes. Swimming with the fish as though one were a creature of the mer. Skin transforming day by day into a radiant shade of bronze. Hair that is freshly kissed by the sun. Countless wild iguanas that wake up at exactly 8:30 in the morning and expect to be fed. Total darkness at night that can swallow you whole. On clear nights, stars illuminate the terrain as they cast a soft glow all around. A six foot long barracuda with a sterror-casting gaze. Boats everywhere. People on boats everywhere, as well. Long curvy roads that hug the sides of the mountains. Being covered in white sand. A yellow jeep that seemed to climb endless heights. Laughing randomly at the sight of a man swimming in a barely there Speedo. Reading works of fiction that were not intended on being read. Wearing a big floppy straw hat and colored sunglasses that provide instant glamour. Bright and bold swimsuits were always on. Writing long letters to stay in touch. Feeling miles away from everything, and most importantly everyone. Wanting desperately to see a sea turtle like several years ago, but never getting the chance. Coming back to the refreshed, relaxed and rejuvenated.

I’m back on the mainland now (missing the ocean and the lazy day afternoons spent gazing out into the cerulean mass before me). Vacation had to end, but I feel revitalized.

As I remember my splendid trip, I can’t help but think of the line that ends my favorite MK & A movie... such a great film and oh so appropriate for tropical vacations!

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