Friday — July 31, 2009
goodbye July...

Another month has come and gone and with it goes a piece of electronics. My DVD player is on the outs. It’s about to break. It’s impossible to watch movies with it because it sporadically will just freeze! It’s kind of funny yet at the same time it is oh so annoying because it takes forever to finish a movie!

July is ending and August is upon us. What will it bring? I know not but I am excited to see what is in store. Each day that passes is more extraordinary than the one that preceded it. In the hours that I am awake I learn so much, in regards to myself and everyone around me, that I cannot help but smile as the twilight falls and a new dawn arises.

Tuesday — July 27, 2009
"a new version of you..."

Have you ever seen the show, “Felicity”? It was on a good while ago on the WB (around the time “Dawson’s Creek” was popular. It was a bout a girl, named Felicity, who moves to New York to attend college. What made the show so engaging was the fact that the sole reason she went to NY at the last minute, instead of attending a University in her home state of California like she was going to, was because of Ben. Ben was her high school crush. He was the popular, good-looking all-star athlete who barely spoke to Felicity (their worlds never collided, she being a studious soon-to-be Med student and he being a party boy). On graduation she mustered up the nerve and asked him to sign her yearbook. He obliged. And what he wrote changed her life forever. She moved to New York and embarked on a whole new adventure she had never planned on.

It’s a great show that lasted all four years of her college experience (it should have been on air longer, if you ask me or my sister). We have the complete series on DVD and must have seen it several times. It’s like watching a long never-ending movie because there are no commercials. I really enjoy watching TV on DVD. We currently are watching junior year (for probably the 4th time). It’s funny, we’ve seen the show so many times, but as you age and grow up the characters change in your eyes and begin to mean different things to you. You learn new lessons, understand situations better and realize that Felicity is quite delusional and should be with Noel and NOT Ben (that being based on chemistry, not looks)!!!

Saturday — July 25, 2009
how to live a good life (according to me)

Do what you love and love what you do. Life is far too short to waste spending time on tasks and activities that mean nothing to you. You should fill your time by partaking in things you enjoy.

Say what you mean and mean what you say. Lies are unnecessary; all they do is cause pain and distress. However, white lies are sometimes better than the truth... that is if they bring a smile rather than a truth that would bring more pain than good. If you can’t think of a polite thing to say, then say absolutely nothing (or say something completely random)!

Surround yourself with positivity because positive thoughts equal positive things. Negative energy feeds negativity, so cut out all of the unpleasantness in your life. It may be hard, but in the long run it will make things so much easier! If something makes you smile don’t be afraid to submerge yourself in that lovely goodness.

Have a carefree attitude and laugh at the randomness all around you.

One last thing… bright vibrant colors have a certain ability to turn any gloomy day into a sunny parade!!!

Wednesday — July 22, 2009
the little things...

There is an old man who lives near me. I see him quite often as I go here and there. He is always outside going for walks with his young granddaughter and the pair always make me smile. They seem to be so genuinely happy to be spending time together, the image of which truly warms the soul. It reminds me of yesteryear and how the simplicity of the little things in life is what makes the bigger picture so worthwhile.

Oh, by the way, I finally got around to making those ooey-gooey-oh-so-good brownies I was craving the other day! They turned out divine! I absolutely adore baking (especially when it involves chocolate and great company ;)!

Tuesday — July 21, 2009
the view is amazing…

Anything is possible. You just have to keep on dreaming and reaching for the stars. Don’t you just love it when you set a goal or have a wish you want to fulfill and then you actually do? That’s how I’m feeling at this very moment. I am in a state of tranquil bliss. I’ve reached the top of the small hill, now it’s just a short uphill climb to the top of the mountain. I’m not sweating it. I made it this far, and I now anything is possible. You just have to believe. Currently I’m just taking a quick break, enjoying the view from this new altitude, before I begin the journey upward. Who knows how long I will take, I don’t, but I know I will get there (probably sooner than previously imagined). I just keep reiterating in my head what I learned last summer, how in a few short days mountains can be moved. Right now I’m not planning to move any mountain, I just want to climb the one that is staring me in smack in the face. I know I will, and that thought makes me smile uncontrollably =)

Wish me luck as I begin my journey!

Monday — July 20, 2009
dream on...

It’s already mid-July, can you believe that? The summer is flying by. It’s gorgeous out. I’m happy to report that the constant rain that we were having in June is gone, gone, gone!!! Watch, I probably just jinxed it! Now tomorrow a huge thunderstorm will appear. If so, it’s not my fault!!!

So, the other morning I awoke from having by far one of the best dreams ever (and I have had a lot of pretty good dreams, trust me)! This one involved a very famous musical group (Hmmm, wonder who I am referring to??). I met them at a concert and we all just became besties for life (there were phone numbers exchanged and words of gratitude for entering their lives….the typical thing most girls fantasize about their crushes doing and saying). I’m not like obsessed with this band, contrary to what some may think, I just happen to like their music and what they stand for. I have a very diverse musical tatse and happen to like tunes that make me smile, and this group always seems to do that! And until they stop, I will be a fan! So, as you can see, my dream was good. I lived out every girl’s fantasy… befriending the band (while keeping it real)!!!!

Sunday — July 19, 2009
cereal

I was craving pancakes, but had waffles for breakfast instead. I’m not a big fan of eating a huge heavy breakfast. I prefer just cereal, or oatmeal (especially when I have it with a maple baked mixed nut-topping and dried cranberries…mmmmm!!). Eggs are good too with thick crispy bacon. Wheat toast with a smudge of butter is always nice too. Banana bread and freshly baked muffins are a classic favorite. Doughnuts never cease to please… maple frosted ones are adored by this girl.

I said before I prefer cereal in the mornings. What kind, you ask? I go through phases where I will be completely obsessed with one particular type and then eat nothing but that for breakfast for months on end (or until I get sick of it). I was a huge RBC (Raisin Bran Crunch) fan before. Then I moved on to Just Bunches (my current favorite)! I also thoroughly enjoy Lucky Charms, but hardly ever eat it because I try and reframe from buying it, I know too many sugary marshmallows can’t be good for you every day!

All of this talk about breakfast foods is making me hungry! Perhaps I’ll go and eat something…like a nice bowl of cereal!!!

Friday — July 17, 2009
reunion

I started to read a new book the other day (so now I am currently tackling a vampire thriller and a dramatic tale about family, love and loss). The Pact, by Jodi Picoult is my new read. It has me quite engaged, so hopefully I will finish it soon (then I can start something else).

It is a positively gorgeous day out! Sunny days make me smile =) I baked some cookies a little while ago. I really am craving some ooey gooey brownies though... perhaps I'll bake that next (but not today...I can only eat so many sweets in one sitting before I feel sick with a sugar overload!).

Today is going to be a day filled with tigers, lions, and singing… oh my!

Thursday — July 16, 2009
Dark Blue

Constant shower. Endless light. Feeling great. Shudder with the breeze. Jump from step to step. Loud choir singing a soft melody. Eating food and never stopping. A thrill of excitement as you get the mail. Knowing the unknown is more powerful than previous thought. Drifting to and falling back. Skipping forward and running to the finish line. Sleep all night. Awake for hours. Seeing clearly and for the first time. Laughter. Joy. Immediate jubilation. Jealousy is not wanted. Only desired gratitude. One and two but never half. Sense and logic put to the test. In and out and side to side.
Blink once. Blink twice, be careful what you may miss.

Wednesday — July 15, 2009
Oh, what a night!

I got lost while driving home. Remained lost for 15 or 20 minutes in a darkened neighborhood with no streetlights. GPS didn’t work. It couldn’t find a signal so it was little help to me. When I finally made it to familiar surroundings I had to drive out of the way in the opposite direction for a couple of miles before turning around due to road work. There were several flies (or were they moths?) in the car that were let in when I opened the car door right before I got lost. I kept getting hot and then cold, so it was a constant temperature change in my vehicle. But the music I was listening to was quite uplifting and was able to raise my spirits and keep from thinking about being lost forever and ever.

I finally made it home. Yay me!! =)

Tuesday — July 14, 2009
applesacue

Apples are good… especially the ones that are picked from the tops of the highest branches on the trees!

Monday — July 13, 2009
Always on…never off

Waiting is the name of the game. I’ve been playing it all day. It seems as though my patience is being tested. I refuse to loose (I’m not a quitter). Sitting. Standing. Nothing to do but wait. Wait for what? The time to come and the events to pass. This and that and everything else… it all requires you to wait. As my resistance to the lengthy process that seems to never end begins to disintegrate and a pounding pain in my head begins to increase at a rapid speed, I take a deep breathe and clear my mind. I turn up the volume and blare an uplifting song (that undoubtedly makes me smile with it’s beyond cheesy lyrics and fast tempo) and begin to escape from the reality that is in front of me. Music helps. It always does. But today, with a headache, I can only withstand so much… before I have to turn the volume down (never off) a bit. Until tomorrow... when the headache will be gone and the music will be back up to its regular ear piercing volume! =)

Sunday — July 12, 2009
Fun with the letter F

Fancy. Fairy. Fairy-tale. Farmer. Firefly. Flame. Fire. Fun. Furry. Fast. Flapjack. Flamboyant. Float. Frost. Fame. Famous. Frame. Funhouse. Fierce. Ferocious. Fear. Feather. Fur. Fang. Foam. Falling. Father. Further. Fiction. Fictitious. Follow. Fruit. Fresh. Flash. Flashlight. Faint. Froth. Fantastic. Fantasy. Flamingo. Flamenco. Free. Feeling. Funny. Femur. Fashion. Fashionista. Furniture. Fanciful. Fight. Fanny-pack. Fasten. Frog. Frozen. Fiesta. Fountain. Fin. Flap. Flapper. Fan.

Falling further. Falling fast. Funny feeling…

I think that is all, this girl is Finished... haha!!!

Saturday — July 11, 2009
I scream =)

I keep listening to the same song. It’s very mellow, very soft. I feel robotic as I print endless pages. I am craving ice cream and wish that my ice cream maker wasn’t down in Miami (there are some cartons in the freezer but it’s more enjoyable when you make it yourself, don’t you think?). The sun is daunting me. “Come out, come out,” it repeats with its constant sunshine. But I can’t. I have too much to do indoors (and I am taking my time, going about everything at a snail’s pace). Why can’t it just rain? That would teach the sun to stop tempting me with its warm rays.

Friday — July 10, 2009
dazzled

I recently had an experience that made feel as though I were walking through the pages of one of my favorite YA novels. Words cannot begin to describe how good I felt. The crazy thing is, the whole situation was completely unexpected and had me speechless. I still am in a daze that what happened, actually did. It was nothing awful, and most people would more than likely argue that it wasn’t even that special of an incident, but to me it was. It was something that I had waited years for. It was a perfect day, in every sense. I still am in shock as to what transpired when I wasn’t even planning on any of it (even though I’m a dreamer, I can still be pretty realistic at times)! Am I happy? Simply put, yes. A smile still creeps across my face when I remember that afternoon. I can only hope that I will have another day like that again… and hopefully I won’t have to wait too long!

Monday — July 1, 2009
a new chapter begins…

The transition from June to July was seamless. You’d never suspect the change, but it was there. It happened at night and came quietly. Crawling like a mouse, ever so softly. If you blinked, you never would have known that it had even arrived, but I did. I was awaiting its arrival. I had been longing for this new chapter to begin for so long. I adore July and am finding that now I love it even more for all that it has brought along with it. I truly am on top of the world!

“And I don't know how it gets better than this, You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless…” — T.S.

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